Struggling...

I'm sure it comes as no surprise that I'm struggling right now. My eating hasn't been a total disaster lately, but I've been very lax about it all. I would say I've been eating clean about 70% or more of the time and really when I think about it that way, I don't feel too bad. But I'm still not looking the way I wanted. It's so funny because I might go a week or so and have several "mess-ups" during that time and when I look at myself I think, "I've gained it all back!" But then when I weigh and measure, I've not gone up at all. That's great but my whole goal is to feel confident in my body and be pleased with the way I look. When I'm eating crap, I'm not meeting that goal...even if my weight and measurements have stayed the same. Up to this point I've been trying to strictly eat clean and lay off of the sweets, including clean sweets. Well, you can see how well that's worked out for me! I realize that any sugar, even if it's clean, is really not great for you. But if I'm going to eat sugar, I'd rather it be clean. And I guarantee that the sugar content in most clean desserts isn't as high as some of the stuff I've been eating. I've also just started keeping track of my calories via MyFitnessPal.com. I think between that, eating clean (including sweets), and all the exercise I do each week, I should be able to reach my goals. Hopefully by allowing myself some clean sweets, I won't be so tempted by processed junk. We'll see! I'm willing to give it a shot. As long as I'm not gaining, I'll be fine. However, I don't want to settle for fine.  I think what I'm learning is that what works for others may not work for me. I have to try different approaches and tweak my plan to fit my needs until I find what works for me. Or maybe what works for others should work for me but my will power sucks! =) All I know is that I'm not giving up. One way or another, I'll get where I want to be and when I do, it'll be awesome!